I See Signs of Spring...
Shawn and Kate,
How are you guys doing? I have been meaning to find a spare second here or there to say hi, but...well, I'm about to explain. : )
So as you have heard, I am surprisingly in a new relationship. I suppose my days of guy bashing are over... DARN IT! :P When I met Sean for the first time, I mean, REALLY met him, there was a lightning bolt and thunder clap...But I didn't say anything to him, except for small talk at Gabe's games. I really thought he was after HER, and we laugh about it because I didn't know he was really after ME all along. He is a solid Christian, and has a leader's heart. It is so evident in the way he treats people, but even more so when he speaks! I can feel the genuineness of his actions and his intensions. .. I never had that with anyone else. God IS, for the first time, the main focus of our relationship. And all along, I should have known that God would let me find what I've been seeking in a partner! I really had given up hope of finding someone who was as passionate about the Faith as me, and I was willing to settle. I am ashamed that I doubted the way I did... And one night as I was sitting there listening to him sing a song that he wrote for me, I cried my eyes out! He just looked at me with the softest eyes, and kept playing his guitar. It was at that very moment that I knew that God doesn't neglect the details! Not a single one. Everything that is important to me, He knows. It was a silly girlish dream, but I always wanted someone to play guitar and sing to me...I just figured it would be a roll of the dice if I actually had that, kind of like a bonus. :) He loves art, the outdoors, wants to build his own house, have a large family, work in the medical field, loves to be active and fit, has a great talent for communication and music, has a love for the Church, and the list goes on and on. One day, I just let him tell me about what he wants in the future without saying anything. It was scary. We were both headed in the same exact direction, down to the smallest details. (He was watching tv and said "oh I love that name!" I just looked at him...I had that baby name picked out. I kid you not, it is just plain weird.) And this time it isn't me trying to force things to "fit"... I wrote in my journal in 2004 that I wanted someone to grow old with, someone to sit on a wrap around porch with glasses of iced tea, and share what God has done in our lives that day. I feel that this IS the person that I can do that with! Sean is amazing. He believes in my whole purity endevor, which is such a relief. I don't have to keep myself and the other person accountable anymore... It was too hard, way way too hard to keep saying "no, no we can't" constantly. But now I only have to watch myself, and even if I were to have a moment of weakness, Sean would be there to smack me upside the head. :) I LOVE IT! I can't wait for you guys to meet him, I think you will be nuts about him. Everyone here approves, and that has never happened before. He has been through the wringer with Gabe and Tiff, even Mr. Hatch. He called Gabe before he talked to me about his intensions to get her ok. He understands if I can't spend all my free time with him! He doesn't get mad that I have to work, or study. This one is THE ONE. My heart is joyous in knowing that everything I went through with Jonathan and Bill was to show me what a gift I have in him. :)
I have to go braid Gabe's hair, but I will continue this converstation with you on the phone later today! I love you guys! XO Me
How are you guys doing? I have been meaning to find a spare second here or there to say hi, but...well, I'm about to explain. : )
So as you have heard, I am surprisingly in a new relationship. I suppose my days of guy bashing are over... DARN IT! :P When I met Sean for the first time, I mean, REALLY met him, there was a lightning bolt and thunder clap...But I didn't say anything to him, except for small talk at Gabe's games. I really thought he was after HER, and we laugh about it because I didn't know he was really after ME all along. He is a solid Christian, and has a leader's heart. It is so evident in the way he treats people, but even more so when he speaks! I can feel the genuineness of his actions and his intensions. .. I never had that with anyone else. God IS, for the first time, the main focus of our relationship. And all along, I should have known that God would let me find what I've been seeking in a partner! I really had given up hope of finding someone who was as passionate about the Faith as me, and I was willing to settle. I am ashamed that I doubted the way I did... And one night as I was sitting there listening to him sing a song that he wrote for me, I cried my eyes out! He just looked at me with the softest eyes, and kept playing his guitar. It was at that very moment that I knew that God doesn't neglect the details! Not a single one. Everything that is important to me, He knows. It was a silly girlish dream, but I always wanted someone to play guitar and sing to me...I just figured it would be a roll of the dice if I actually had that, kind of like a bonus. :) He loves art, the outdoors, wants to build his own house, have a large family, work in the medical field, loves to be active and fit, has a great talent for communication and music, has a love for the Church, and the list goes on and on. One day, I just let him tell me about what he wants in the future without saying anything. It was scary. We were both headed in the same exact direction, down to the smallest details. (He was watching tv and said "oh I love that name!" I just looked at him...I had that baby name picked out. I kid you not, it is just plain weird.) And this time it isn't me trying to force things to "fit"... I wrote in my journal in 2004 that I wanted someone to grow old with, someone to sit on a wrap around porch with glasses of iced tea, and share what God has done in our lives that day. I feel that this IS the person that I can do that with! Sean is amazing. He believes in my whole purity endevor, which is such a relief. I don't have to keep myself and the other person accountable anymore... It was too hard, way way too hard to keep saying "no, no we can't" constantly. But now I only have to watch myself, and even if I were to have a moment of weakness, Sean would be there to smack me upside the head. :) I LOVE IT! I can't wait for you guys to meet him, I think you will be nuts about him. Everyone here approves, and that has never happened before. He has been through the wringer with Gabe and Tiff, even Mr. Hatch. He called Gabe before he talked to me about his intensions to get her ok. He understands if I can't spend all my free time with him! He doesn't get mad that I have to work, or study. This one is THE ONE. My heart is joyous in knowing that everything I went through with Jonathan and Bill was to show me what a gift I have in him. :)
I have to go braid Gabe's hair, but I will continue this converstation with you on the phone later today! I love you guys! XO Me
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