Ghost town::
Hey Shawn and Katie,
You guys are MIA from this site huh? =) You must blog!!! Blog lots and lots so that I know what you've been up to lately!
Gabe and I just went to a sneek peek with Richard. We saw Underworld. Despite me just naturally disliking movies with vampires and the like, this was THE worst movie I have ever seen. If you were a fan of the first one, don't bother with the second. There was no "art" to it at all...I don't know who wrote the script but they did a really bad job. It was just one large blood bath and two eyebrow-raising sex scenes. Yeahhh.....
Anyways, Gabe and I are about to commence on our last semester up at good old OCC. It is kind of exciting, but also stressful because I am always thinking about what is next. And even though it is constantly on my mind, I am not always sure in what order I need to do things, or even WHAT those things are! But I feel a little more focused after talking with mom today... So just a few more months until school here is done and I FINALLY get my art degree in my hand (I was lacking my Eng 104).
The "school room" is still not finished, although I have been putting in the most hours.=P I'm sure I'll hear it for that comment.=) I just want it done so that the eliptical machine can be removed from the hall...If I ever had to get up during the night to pee I'd end up wrangling with it I'm sure...Ok I know you are laughing now because I never get up to go to the bathroom at night. Just saying that IF i did (MOM)! =D
Gabe and I have spent a little bit of time with Michael lately...He came over for dinner last night and stayed until 12:30 AM. Of course there is speculation, and Mrs Kribs is sort of hinting and getting involved in the whole "who likes who" kind of thing. I don't know what it is lately, but it really just rubs me the wrong way. It's not like this is highschool. I'm so tired of people being immature and not thinking before speaking or acting. Not to say that I am exempt from this... But when it comes to friendships and relationships I suppose I am a little bit hardened. Can you blame me? As far as I'm concerned, it will be a very long time before I let another guy into my heart...That poor thing is going to have a tough road ahead of him when it comes time. But at the same time it is strange to be 21, in a previous significant relationship, now without that "someone." The someone that completes my life, my heart. God was made to fill the void, I know that, but letting that happen has proven to be a very difficult challenge. I do believe that I am a walking contradiction, because I do not want a relationship, but yet long for companionship and "wholeness." People will say that it is natural and completely understandable, but I myself do not get it. How is this possible? I refuse to rush anything just for the sake of being comfortable and needed. The strange thing is that I hadn't looked or thought of Jonathan or Bill as rushing into anything. But in hindsight, I forget what I felt then, what I was thinking. Except just to trust, see where it would take me... I believed Jon was the one. Weird how things change. Bill was everything that Jon was not, but I had not expected a relationship to come from it the night I met him. I needed a friend, and he was that for me. But on the other hand, I wasn't anything that he needed. I've accepted that, forgiven him for the way he went about it, and have pushed ahead. I've learned that emotions cannot be trusted, and it is not in my best interest to rely on just that. The Bible talkes alot about that...It kind of sticks out now...=)And so these are just minor growing pains, and I have to remind myself not to become bitter over being "used". After all, I was the one who lacked judgement. I may wear my heart on my sleeve, but I won't be taken advantage of anymore. Because frankly, it just sucks... That is my new year's resolution I think!=) Another one of my resolutions too is to speak my mind, and I intend on doing just that.=P I've heard that I have changed alot in that way lately so stay posted! You never know what I'll come up with next!=)
Alright, well I'm going to stop my nonsense here tonight because it is getting really "out there" and I'm sure you are saying by now "what is she thinking?!". I'd clarify that for you now but I promised Dominguez I'd call him tonight so I can't... =)
Talk to you both soon. I love you! XO Me
You guys are MIA from this site huh? =) You must blog!!! Blog lots and lots so that I know what you've been up to lately!
Gabe and I just went to a sneek peek with Richard. We saw Underworld. Despite me just naturally disliking movies with vampires and the like, this was THE worst movie I have ever seen. If you were a fan of the first one, don't bother with the second. There was no "art" to it at all...I don't know who wrote the script but they did a really bad job. It was just one large blood bath and two eyebrow-raising sex scenes. Yeahhh.....
Anyways, Gabe and I are about to commence on our last semester up at good old OCC. It is kind of exciting, but also stressful because I am always thinking about what is next. And even though it is constantly on my mind, I am not always sure in what order I need to do things, or even WHAT those things are! But I feel a little more focused after talking with mom today... So just a few more months until school here is done and I FINALLY get my art degree in my hand (I was lacking my Eng 104).
The "school room" is still not finished, although I have been putting in the most hours.=P I'm sure I'll hear it for that comment.=) I just want it done so that the eliptical machine can be removed from the hall...If I ever had to get up during the night to pee I'd end up wrangling with it I'm sure...Ok I know you are laughing now because I never get up to go to the bathroom at night. Just saying that IF i did (MOM)! =D
Gabe and I have spent a little bit of time with Michael lately...He came over for dinner last night and stayed until 12:30 AM. Of course there is speculation, and Mrs Kribs is sort of hinting and getting involved in the whole "who likes who" kind of thing. I don't know what it is lately, but it really just rubs me the wrong way. It's not like this is highschool. I'm so tired of people being immature and not thinking before speaking or acting. Not to say that I am exempt from this... But when it comes to friendships and relationships I suppose I am a little bit hardened. Can you blame me? As far as I'm concerned, it will be a very long time before I let another guy into my heart...That poor thing is going to have a tough road ahead of him when it comes time. But at the same time it is strange to be 21, in a previous significant relationship, now without that "someone." The someone that completes my life, my heart. God was made to fill the void, I know that, but letting that happen has proven to be a very difficult challenge. I do believe that I am a walking contradiction, because I do not want a relationship, but yet long for companionship and "wholeness." People will say that it is natural and completely understandable, but I myself do not get it. How is this possible? I refuse to rush anything just for the sake of being comfortable and needed. The strange thing is that I hadn't looked or thought of Jonathan or Bill as rushing into anything. But in hindsight, I forget what I felt then, what I was thinking. Except just to trust, see where it would take me... I believed Jon was the one. Weird how things change. Bill was everything that Jon was not, but I had not expected a relationship to come from it the night I met him. I needed a friend, and he was that for me. But on the other hand, I wasn't anything that he needed. I've accepted that, forgiven him for the way he went about it, and have pushed ahead. I've learned that emotions cannot be trusted, and it is not in my best interest to rely on just that. The Bible talkes alot about that...It kind of sticks out now...=)And so these are just minor growing pains, and I have to remind myself not to become bitter over being "used". After all, I was the one who lacked judgement. I may wear my heart on my sleeve, but I won't be taken advantage of anymore. Because frankly, it just sucks... That is my new year's resolution I think!=) Another one of my resolutions too is to speak my mind, and I intend on doing just that.=P I've heard that I have changed alot in that way lately so stay posted! You never know what I'll come up with next!=)
Alright, well I'm going to stop my nonsense here tonight because it is getting really "out there" and I'm sure you are saying by now "what is she thinking?!". I'd clarify that for you now but I promised Dominguez I'd call him tonight so I can't... =)
Talk to you both soon. I love you! XO Me
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